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Five Simple Things (July 9)
Hello.
We had a fun week actually. With Fourth of July and a few other fun activities, it was a pretty good week, actually. We also have a trip to Bend planned this weekend to look at some land that may become part of our future. We are pretty excited about it and have our fingers crossed it all comes together, but we've been here before and it hasn't come through, so we aren't putting all of our chicks in the same basket just yet. But, we are hoping for a positive outcome. We also went on a nice bike ride this week and also laid a lot in our hammocks. We've been enjoying out backyard a lot this summer and are hoping it remains a calm summer and not an edgy one like last year. We also took this week to organize our camping equipment and get things in order for camping. We don't normally camp in the summer because of how warm it is, especially the last few years. We enjoy our camping time towards the end of summer and into the autumn months. We have a few new things we added to our supplies, and plan on adding a few more items soon. Here are five things this week.
1. These Flowers.
2. This Salt.
5. This Art.
Trauma/PTSD, or even fight or flight response, is a sometimes difficult thing to navigate through from day to day. Some days you get through the entire day without issue, but some days it feels as though you're being crushed beneath a pile of wood and screamed at that you're a failure. These days are the hardest and the most undeserving. There are times I feel as though I may die, never get better, or wish I could end the pain as soon as possible. These days are getting better to navigate through due to my own strength and perseverance. I don't want to ever give up, or give into people that try to pull me under water. You, too can do this! You are strong, capable, and above all deserving of a better life. We are better than our past and our mental illnesses. Fight and never believe the negative of what your mind likes to trick you with.
Have a nice weekend.
Fourth of July 2021
This Fourth of July we did our normal routine of shooting off a few fireworks, having some treats and foods we don't normally eat, and enjoying the night. Since last year, and the city allowing for larger fireworks, we got to see the city's firework display from our front yard this year. It was a pretty calm evening, other than the bangs and booms, we had a nice Fourth of July. Here's a recap of our day.
Five Simple Things (July 2)
Hello.
We're getting better from our accident, but I had a full blown panic attack on Tuesday and have been having nightmares. I was given a dream diary a few months ago and have started writing in it this week to keep track of when these nightmares happen and what's triggering them. My doctor tells me that at times the brain has an overload of information and it processes it in the subconscious when we sleep. A nightmare is just out brain's way of trying to figure it all out. My neck is still sore and my head, but not as bad as it was. I was able to brush my hair this week and it's still sore, but I just skipped over those areas. My bruises are fading and I no longer have to cover them up. I rode with Jeff to the store, too and was on edge the whole time. I don't know when I'll be able to drive again without feeling anxious. Time is what everyone keeps telling me and that's all I have right now. We didn't do a podcast episode this week because Skylar and I both just didn't feel like doing it. Our minds are overwhelmed at the moment. Skylar and I talked a lot this week and he told me a few things he's been feeling since the accident. I let him talk and get out anything he needs to, something my parents didn't do for me after a traumatic event, so I want to be sure he is able to have an open and judgement free space he can feel his feelings. Both of us are getting better and this week we really saw some positive changes with our physical, mental, and emotional recovery. On another aspect, we hit 119.7 here in the Willamette Valley on Monday and with Jeff's cooperative weather spotting with the NWS he may have had the highest recorded temperature in the state of Oregon. Two men with the NWS came to verify his recordings and as of right now it's the highest temperature. Jeff is pretty excited about that, because he literally made history. He is still waiting on confirmation, but either way, it's pretty exciting. Here are five things this week.
1. This Rug.
Have a nice weekend.